Last week I was feeling lonely thinking of my friends who had died or disappeared behind the wall of dementia. I actually made a list of the people who I still have here. It made me feel better. I noticed that there was no one on the list that I had to "put up with". No bosses, trouble makers, or even no one of a different political persuasion. Yes. The big decisions and the high stakes lie in the past. And, along with them lies drama and excitement. Is that depressing or comforting? I think both.
For me, keeping attached to the newness of today involves living "small." A new job, a new love affair, or new home becomes a new book, new class, new restaurant. Or even, unwrapping a new bar of soap.
Boring?
Remember, we can put danger, guilt and regret in the rear view mirror
too.
I love this! And how timely. Just this morning as I took my shower and watched the tiny sliver of soap finally melt away, I thought “Oh good! Now I will unwrap that lovely bar of soap from Italy that I got for Christmas last year.” Those small things have taken on a new significance with age.
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